11 Day Clearing~ Self Doubt

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Day 1

On our little 11 day odyssey there are many things we can look into clearing, I am going to begin with self doubt. I would imagine that this is going to have some form of fear as its origin. We have so many hidden fears that flavor our psyches, and our inner emotional closets. “Why doesn’t he love me?” Yeah, I am going to start there. Well the answer is, It doesn’t matter. Why don’t I love myself? Now that is a better question. Sometimes I think I do, but do I really? Yesterday I did what I like to call, Divination via iTunes. That’s right. You set your intention for a message and then shuffle all your songs. Madonna, I like to call Madge, sang to me, “Don’t go for second best baby…” I heard her. I am the best! I am a sexy, goddess. I am smart. I am kind. I am funny. I am talented.

I AM That I AM~ I Am Brahman~ Such is the Truth

Okay, not meaning to sound arrogant but I really don’t lack confidence on the surface, but I have abandonment issues because, for starters, my father did not want to be a father, and said so. That hurt, that still hurts. Little Sindy is very sad, she wanted her daddy to love her, he didn’t. It appears I am going to carry this theme through until I clear it. So let’s clear up that issue. Taking it out of the psychological closet and looking at it, it seems I think it still has some value as I keep putting it back in there. I am not a victim! I have never been, or will I ever be a victim. My being chose this for me to overcome this, to transmute this challenge. So I am really not sure how to clear it, because I have tried. I have written letters to my dad and tossed them into the Pacific ocean from a boat . Oh he is dead by the way. He died when he was like 53. I shed a few tears out of a sense of propriety but I really didn’t care. He wasn’t mean or abusive, he just didn’t love me, didn’t protect me, oh well, not a victim, not a victim. lol

“Respect Yourself…Hey, hey.”

So today, I will reinforce my value to myself, or rather to my Being and to my Life Purpose. Still not sure what that is either?

Prana Meditation by Laura Evans

A physical clearing that many of you are probably aware of is a salt/baking soda bath. I do this and also use a crystal to skim my body and cut energetic cords. So Day 1, a bit personal but it’s about clearing.

工 レo√乇 ㄚ◯∪ ✿ 工 レo√乇 ㄚ◯∪ ✿ 工 レo√乇 ㄚ◯∪

HAPPY BIRTHDAY to my Mom, who is so beautiful, kind, funny, classy, stylish, and really awesome! I might not have had a dad that loved me, but I gave myself an incredible mother!

✿ღ✿ღ.¸¸ღ♫*¨`*•..¸ƸӜƷ ✿ღ ✫❀✿ღ✿ღ.¸¸ღ♫*¨`*•..¸ƸӜƷ ✿ღ ✫❀

Namaste

Sindy

Day 2 is Linda ~ litebeing chronicles

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27 thoughts on “11 Day Clearing~ Self Doubt

  1. Know what’s REALLY cool? This is my 333 post. The numbers…. Crazy! Peace & Love Yall~

  2. shreejacob says:

    Dang 333 posts??!!!?? That’s awesome 🙂
    Nice start to the clearing theme Sindy…self doubt is so in grained in all of us…sometimes so subtly that we may not know it ! Cutting karmic cords is a good way to clear the cords..the other is to ask Archangel Micheal’s help to cut the cords too…I’ve done it that way.

    Sometimes I feel it’s for us to know that regardless of what happened, it wasn’t that we didn’t love them, but it wasn’t in their capacity to love us, but when we learn to love ourselves, then the healing starts? I don’t know….I have self doubt issues too!!

    • Thank you Shree! Intellectual from all of my spiritual studies, I believe that we pick these scenarios to be born into, and that our beings want to transmute them, want the challenge of knowing that, We Are Love.
      But still have that knowledge hasn’t brought it to full knowing. Know what I mean? lol

      I so appreciate you and my WP friends. Yall are the bestest!!!
      Namaste
      Sindy

  3. ptero9 says:

    I can relate to the abandonment issues and troubles with my dad. Somewhere along the line it got better. I know he loves me and we have had a chance to renew our relationship. But as for the issues, I think ultimately he couldn’t help me with them.
    Back in the 90’s when I did go through therapy, I was able to see that often I abandon myself, my ideals, my loves in favor of doing what I think will please others. Knowing that helps to serve as a reminder to be truer to myself, on a good day I can do this, but not always.
    Thanks for starting this off!

    • Ah Debra~ {{{HUGS}}} I attempted to have a friendship with my dad, and in a way it wasn’t personal, he probably thought he loved us, (Myself, brother, and sisters) but he just had his own journey. It really is not about him for me, but my desire to be sheltered and protected as some fathers do their little girls. It is a bit embarrassing to admit but hey, it is. lol

      I look forward to reading your post. Have a great visit with your sister. I live with mine and she is such an inspiration.

      Namaste
      Sindy

  4. first law: “love thyself”
    without this, all else fails
    you have a great blog!! this is a wonderful post

  5. Excellent clearing. It’s the deep clutter that’s most difficult to scrub away. 🙂

  6. great post! this type of honest, heartfelt, evocative material is what attracted me to your blog initially, great job Sindy! Self – doubt is such a common and pervasive critter. I will support you in your clearing with love.

  7. Before this comment it said 11 Comments and over at my email 33. the numbers…….:D

  8. I see you in the middle of the great pyramid, levitating horizontal in the centre… All your cells are opening, your whole physical body is opening up like roses… to receive new crystalline energy in which to transmute all issues surrounding ‘Daddy’… also it is good that we remember that our parents do the best they can…

    Thankyou for the lovely start to our 11 day cleansing…
    I love you, I’m sorry, please forgive me and thank you… Barbara

  9. james369 says:

    Happy Birthday to your Mom!

  10. Remember, go back to (Mother) nature and (Father) skies, and star (sisters and brothers) and winds in your hair 🙂
    This is where we all come from & where we shall return… This is where true love comes from. It is up to you open up, forgive and accept it. (I know, easier said than done hehe. But I’m still holding that space for you until you own it 🙂
    Kudos to your super mom & happy (belated) birthday to her!
    xox

  11. Valentina says:

    Sindy, I have had the best parents one can possibly want, very strict, but very good people with high morals. I can understand why women insecurity at times comes from the family, but we have a lifetime to learn to love ourself. Women are the fulcrum of the universe and we make things go around. If women weren’t around there wouldn’t be any procreation. You are who you are and you are beautiful just as you are. Happy Birthday to your mom.

  12. Awesome post! Love the salt bath… and super cool that it is your 333 post!!!!
    xoxox
    Karen

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