To Be or To Be Later

Procrastination has been a constant in my existence as me. Today I saw a video by Jesse Elder, on the subject, Elder says that procrastination is a form of spiritual self-defense. I thought, “I love this guy!” because, I am a hardcore procrastinator. After I allowed the thought to ruminate I thought, “No, perhaps 10% of procrastination is a divine delay, but for me I think 90% of it is fear, either fear of failure, fear of success, or some form of irrational fear. I made efforts to meditate on it searching for its origin. I was not able to find it yet. Now when I procrastinate I am usually full of stress and guilt until I execute the “said” task at hand. This cycle makes no sense at all. I know that guilt is a useless and negative emotion, so why do I constantly self-impose it? I really want to understand this, so thank you Mr. Elder for sending me on the path of discovery.

Nine days until graduation, my robe is hanging in the closet; I just need to pickup my Honor Cords from the Registrar Office. I am excited but procrastinating on the job search. Therefore my thinking on the topic. My mom always says, “Just do it!” and I still don’t.

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