To Be or To Be Later

Procrastination has been a constant in my existence as me. Today I saw a video by Jesse Elder, on the subject, Elder says that procrastination is a form of spiritual self-defense. I thought, “I love this guy!” because, I am a hardcore procrastinator. After I allowed the thought to ruminate I thought, “No, perhaps 10% of procrastination is a divine delay, but for me I think 90% of it is fear, either fear of failure, fear of success, or some form of irrational fear. I made efforts to meditate on it searching for its origin. I was not able to find it yet. Now when I procrastinate I am usually full of stress and guilt until I execute the “said” task at hand. This cycle makes no sense at all. I know that guilt is a useless and negative emotion, so why do I constantly self-impose it? I really want to understand this, so thank you Mr. Elder for sending me on the path of discovery.

Nine days until graduation, my robe is hanging in the closet; I just need to pickup my Honor Cords from the Registrar Office. I am excited but procrastinating on the job search. Therefore my thinking on the topic. My mom always says, “Just do it!” and I still don’t.

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Goddess Grid

I am back before it is done. Good news is I passed, so I am done being graded. Today I want to celebrate and send energy to all the sacred sites, and all the goddesses worldwide and beyond into the galaxy. Friday night I picked up a book that has been around for 25 years, The Celestine Prophecy, by James Redfield. I knew most of the concepts and theories represented by the narrative, so I did not bother reading it back then, but everyone else did. I believe everything happens in a divine way when you are following the right leader, your higher-self. The book helped me to further coalesce psychological spiritual concepts regarding energy and living in the world. I felt that I had to finish that book yesterday, so I did.

I do not cotton to war. I am a lover of peace. I intuitively believe that we can assist by sending love to all the goddesses everywhere, nurture the goddess in you. Let us together boost the love and powerful radiance of the Goddess Grid. Send motherly nurturing love to yourself and out to the world. I love you.

Dreams Allowed

It has been a bit since I have had a chance to post. The schedule of a teacher takes some getting used to. This post is a bit about everything. There is so much going on both in my life and on the planetary and universal stage. Expansion is occurring exponentially and I can see it in my day to day life, and through having a peripheral awareness of current events both secular and spiritual.

I am in Spring Break but it is only a break in my sleep schedule and that is all. I am currently studying for my state professionalism certification exam, which I could pass without studying but why chance it $80 and three hours of my time? I did take the weekend off from any school or teaching related activity, almost forgetting my weekly Reflection assignment to my ASU supervisor due every Friday night. On Saturday I just enjoyed the amazing mild weather we have in Arizona in Fall/Winter and Spring, sometimes. I messed around in the garden, fed the birds, had long talks with friends on the phone, and just chilled. My good friend, the talented Queen shared a video with me on Quantum Astrology that well coalesced all my theories and then some. This girl literally blew me away. I felt yet another layer of enlightenment and knowing. As Amanda’s says, Meru Matu is authentic and fresh. I will leave her links below.

After watching the video I spent several hours processing. All these various segments of information, mystical experiences, years of reading esoteric text, channeled information, and so on, began gelling into a new understanding of existence. In the last couple of months I have been so busy learning in practice which prior had been mostly theoretical regarding teaching, and now I am seeing theory into practice in quantum existence. It’s deep, and fun!

So today I began reading all those Education and Pedagogy text books I never read when in school, to study. Fun! Although extremely pleasant in the paradise that is my garden patio. The bird feeders are full and the kitty is fed and content and I am studying and talking to the parrots. The parrots cannot be seen but heard, so I talk to them and they answer. Then who I believe is the parrot I have named Brave Tweet, as he/she will come alone to eat, lands on the BBQ about a foot from where the cat is sitting in the chair at the table. I am sitting on the other side of the table and I am talking to the Tweet and watching the cat who is watching the bird. The parrot is super interested in me and I happen to have my phone, which usually scares them away, so I start filming. I move closer in hopes he/she flies away because the cat is so close. He/she will not. I stand and cross to where the cat is sitting and pick her up (which in itself is surprising that she let me) the bird doesn’t move, and I am still filming. It was so cool and I have proof. OMG my heart was on edge but it was amazing. If you are my friend on FB you can see the videos.

On Sunday, and after hearing Meru Matu’s talk I went to look at something on my natal chart and I miraculously could understand aspects of reading a chart that had baffled me on all prior investigations. Just the basics really but still it was different, like an epiphany or miraculous knowing. Sounds crazy but it was if if I went to do algebra and could do it. lol Reading my on natal chart was cool, and I must say accurate. It did give me a better understanding of things. I look forward to getting a Starseed lineage reading from Meru sometimes in the future.

I almost forgot the title . . . in a meditative state on Saturday I heard, “Manifestation is just removing blocks to allow for your destiny.” I got it. It takes no effort to manifest what we already possess. The challenge is to remove spiritual psychological, and ego created blocks like fears, and beliefs of inadequacy, and so on. I am the creator of my matrix that is being played by my higher self. I am the player, and the avatar in the game coming into an alchemical awareness. That is my understanding now, the same as before but confirmed.

So planning underway for graduation and getting a job. Love you all. Enjoy the expansion.

Sun Soul Astrology

Sun Soul Astrology Website

Meru Matu FB

Food for Thought

The Secret Origin of Humanity with Graham Hancock

Art by: Derek McCrea

Magical Melodies

Hello friends. The weather has been so lovely this weekend, and I had such a magical day, that I kept getting distracted with the parrots  still visiting and a gentle sun. I have a new phone, a generous gift from a dear friend. A lady that is always helping others. My student teaching is going well. I really love it there, and my students, and teacher. Now three months to graduation. I am so excited I am almost doing the Snoopy Dance, but I know I will cry on my last day with these kids. But I am still excited.

Oh and guess what? I read my poetry at a poetry slam for ASU, and Eddy accompanied me  on guitar. I was kind of surprised I did that. The most fun was mentoring the young poets.

Here is my Magical Melodies Playlist. Sorry but the music is not available on YouTube. Two Beatles and two ELO.

Magical Mystery Tour

Strange Magic

Strawberry Fields Forever

All Over the World

I miss you all and I hope my post finds you in a happy light .

Peace of Mind

Hello Friends. Long time no see. Student teaching is so much fun. I was anxious coming in, but it is awesome. I love my students, my school, and especially my mentor teacher. I have been so blessed in the entire process. This is why that I know that when your desires are divine, and aligned with your life purpose things flow. I could say “I wished I had done this years ago, when I was younger”, but I know that the time is now, was supposed to be now. Anyways I have to go to bed super early and get up super early, and the universe decided I needed to stay unplugged, so I broke another phone and well whatever. lol For now. I am waiting on some funding. I am happy and all is well.

Oh, and Full Moon Lunar Eclipse on the day of my first observation. lol After that I am going to be a mentor at an ASU Poetry Slam for high school students.

I miss you guys.

Lots of love.

Solstice Love

Happy Holidays & Happy Winter’s Solstice

I will just give a quick check in and hello. I was unplugged again because I used up all my data, so internet time is limited to the library, or the church, until Saturday. I finished my last semester of classes at ASU well, 3.81 GPA. I took and passed one of my state school board certifications yesterday. I begin student teaching in the second week of January, at a really nice school, with a super nice teacher. Just four months to graduation.

Thanks to my friend Romeo Baron on Facebook for this image. I feel very connected to it. After meeting those Lion beings from Sirius B, I really like that connection. My sister took me to a yoga sound meditation on the new moon last Sunday which was amazing. I am working the next couple of days and then it is Christmas. Boy time sure flies. I will leave a couple of cool links below. I love you all and if you feel blue during the Holidays, know that I am sending you lots of love.

Starseed Transmission

New Moon & Alignment to the Galactic Core

The Lion People of Sirius B

Saturn’s end in Sag, Mercury Retrograde on Venus,

New Moon Sagittarius, Prep for Saturn in Capricorn

 

Lots of love & hope for peace on Earth in the hearts of us all~