Somber Reflections & Saturn Return

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Hey everybody. How are you all doing? Please tell me I do want to know. Life just gets curiouser, and curiouser doesn’t it? All is well, and I have so many blessings to count, and I enjoy doing it. Did we just go through a portal, or magic mirror? Somehow that is how I feel. As with many, many of us, especially people my generation, I was really set into melancholy, and nostalgia yesterday morning when I heard of David Bowie’s transition. Whilst taking that Bowie Bus down Memory Lane, simultaneously researching my Saturn Return, (my face in an expression of displeasure) lol not really but how did that sneak up on me like that. It’s Retrospective 😉 I mean Saturn? Really? Didn’t I just rejoice awhile back when it left Scorpio? lol I know that Saturn Return is not the same, but dang, Saturn So Serious. So there was a lot of somber reflection, and some really happy memories of the 80’s, again. My first Saturn Return would have been 1986. Perhaps that is why the 80’s are popping up for me? Or maybe because they were just so much fun! I like fun. FUN is GOOD. FUN is a GREAT word.

Astrologers any corrections, or info you feel like sharing please do. I have my chart from astrodienst.com, I did about 9 months ago but they don’t seem to do free natal charts anymore. I went to Cafe Astrology.com and found their Natal Chart Report pretty right on the money. It was only off in a couple places. If you knew me, and read it, you would be shaking your head in agreement. Very revealing. However I am a really good investigator, and researcher I do not wish to be a cop.

It was very sobering to read about my second Saturn Return, contemplating whether you lived your life, or wasted it, basically, making you face your mortality. (One aspect of my chart says I exaggerate, and I do) However, I think I am alright. I finally got on track some years back when I left LA. So if your approaching it, get your stuff handled. lol I told my sister she would be good to go, as she is clearing her path diligently.

Last Thursday my sister and I were planning on attending meditation, but the whether was bad, so we decided to meditate at home. I have a “Go To” Doreen Virtue meditation, that I have shared here before, but it keeps getting taken down by YouTube, as she isn’t the subscriber posting……anyways, it wasn’t there. Second option is Deepak Chopra’s, Secret of Healing, but I forgot that was on YouTube as well and got the cd. The cd would not play on my computer (Blast you Mercury Retrograde) so I go fetch the cd player, having abandoned in dismay my laptop. Finally we settle in all comfy cozy for meditation. I do so love that DV meditation with the angels, so I appealed to them to do the work they do in that meditation whilst I settled down to listen to Deepak. I thought, “I wonder if I can connect with Jeanette, and our meditation group?” Immediately I see brilliant images of myself, Jeanette and others flying on the backs of iridescent dragons, shooting forth beams of purples, emerald greens, cobalt blue, and all manner of radiant color beams of light, as we spiral towards a sun (?) As we reached the light we exploded in transformation and we were on the backs of gigantic butterflies, and millions of smaller butterflies were all around. Then I feel movement through the cosmos among the stars being guided by Archangel Michael, and a Golden Christ Beam (?) I see three golden arches that form a circle, as you enter you are in a portal, I hear, “This is the Christic Karmic Clock, (has nice alliteration) and the floor is a swirling golden vortex. They told me that all karma could just be dropped into the vortex. At this juncture I was just, gobsmacked is the only word I can think to use. Is this feasible, I suppose it is just the equivalent to Christian forgiveness. That was a cool experience for me, and it got cooler, when Jeanette St. Germain, shared what they had experienced, I was confirmed.

Also shout out and Happy Birthday to litebeing chronicles, she just turned 3 on 1/11. The blogs owner, Linda, is a very good astrologer and sister Scorpio, that can help you navigate your natal chart. Please avail yourself of her services.

 

Much love friends

Namaste

Sindy

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Monsters

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 Scary Monsters

There is a continuance on the Inner Child Challenge it just doesn’t seem to be over. The signs, synchronous occurrences and emotions that have arisen, are a clear indication that the process is still unfolding. The great thing is that I have the maturity and spiritual tools, and knowledge to recognize them and their origins as they arise. I really sort of avoided it in the last post but, our Inner Children have monsters in their closet.  I Love Monsters Inc. which is very appropriate for the discussion. So of mine have come out and I am really not that scared of them, but, I did not realize so much of them remained deep in the psyche of my Inner Child.

On Sunday I attended a grand party of friends and musicians playing and we had a fantastic time. Me a little too fantastic. I had been wanting to have a few drinks and I just never do. So this day I did, oh brother did I pay. I was purging heavily for a spell about 2 AM, my head pounding, by 8 AM i was fine. I was sharing this with my good friend and she says “oh well that makes sense that there was a Neptune aspect that would imply overindulgence, and purging without Ayahuasca with Jupiter going into Virgo, could be the release of Mars male ego energy residuals,” she also told me to nurture my feminine side. This all made sense to me and then today I see a curious article Lindsay Lohan says “Ayahuasca Changed My Life.” It was interesting, so I followed up with Sting talking of his experience. Down the Rabbit Hole I go. Which led me to a documentary you may have seen, Metamorphosis- Ayahuasca Documentary. I have friends that have ventured to the Amazon for this sacred ceremonial medicine so I had some understanding. What really strikes me here is the stuff that is hidden in the psyche that comes forth. I had tears all throughout the film. It shows some deep healing work with the Inner Child. It is a powerful documentary. It is my belief that this kind of work that is done without Ayahuasca is easy to back away from and not continue. If one makes the kind of commitment made to go to the Amazon, no matter how terrifying the work, you will persevere. I am not saying that I am making that commitment but I can certainly see the spiritual benefit of that journey of healing. This is really a full circle moment, the Ayahuasca Ceremony center is called The Blue Morpho, Shamanic Ayahuasca & Sacred Plant Retreat, prior to beginning this blog I had many visions of the Blue Morpho butterfly, which is how I came to this name. I am not sure what this all means, I know that fellow blogger Trina, at Akosmopolite shared her experience and found it transcendent. I also saw the film, The Blue Butterfly, years ago, that was a kids healing journey, it is a great film.

All this and the 888 Lions Gate Portal….whoa….its been very interesting stuff, but I got this. The journey continues.

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