Inside Job

Visual Alchemy 33

 Visual Alchemy

This is in collaboration with Leigh of, Not Just Sassy on the Inside…. We have been asked to write on the subject of Forgiveness, now many of us have written on forgiveness, but it is an ongoing process as long as we are in a body and still have an ego running the show more often than not. So forgiveness is an ongoing process. About a month ago, (and I wrote about it here) I did something that would give someone an opportunity to practice forgiveness. Lol Not for that reason, I just made a mistake. Just moments after I made this mistake, I knew that I had made a mistake. I had allowed the grumpy butt aspect of ego to act out. “Drats” I cursed at myself, “Why, oh why had I allowed Grumpy Butt ego to have a voice???” But alas I had, and the damage was done.

I have blogged before Neale Donald Walsh’s story “The Little Soul and the Sun,” and in my mind I always return to it. However even if I did give someone else an opportunity to forgive me, I would rather have not created that disturbance in the force. So now I have an opportunity to forgive myself. I have not been able to as of yet. I know better. How can I be a good example? How can I be a spiritual voice, when I allow anger to come forth from my mouth? I am ashamed of myself, and embarrassed by it. I know, I know, that sounds harsh and all my sweet blogger friends are going to tell me we are just human, and it is true, but I hold myself accountable. I am certain that this will not be the last occasion that I give myself an opportunity to forgive myself, but I will do my best to keep it to myself and just forgive the anger inside. I just do not wish to ripple any negatives into the universal field. I am sure you all understand that. However had I not made that mistake, it would not be out on the table for me to examine, the harsh light of day shinning right on the ugliness, revealing it. I suppose letting it issue forth in that vein was good because it is not hidden in the shadows but blatantly revealed.

So do we let our monsters out of the closet, or do we go in after them with a flashlight? A work in progress, we all are.

I am of the mind that I am not a victim, that you are not a victim, and that in this dualistic realm we inhabit, we are responsible for everything in our lives. Some people just don’t buy that concept, but self-sovereignty is my belief. I love being the creator of my existence, and owning all my stuff. So thank you Leigh for giving me the opportunity to review this. I was going to write about forgiving my father for not wanting to be a father, but I discovered I already had, there is nothing to forgive. Really, Forgiveness is an Inside Job.




Forgive The Past



This is from Theresa Crabtree’s, Mayan Messages, for today. It just came in. I wanted to share it. Be sure to follow Mayan Messages for her awesome daily post.



“What do you wish to create? Your future begins now, in this moment. No matter what you have chosen in your past, the Path you walk today will create your future.

Take time to quiet your mind and relax your body. Take a few moments to breathe in and out, releasing the thoughts and cares of the day. Feel your muscles relax while focusing on your breathing. Take a moment to reflect on the circumstances of your life. Feel gratitude for each of the blessings that comes to your mind. Are there any areas of dis-ease or unrest you would like to change? Choose one, it matters not which one for you can return at any time and work on other issues.

Look closely at the problem you wish to focus on today. When did it first appear in your life? What were the circumstances surrounding the event? How did you react at that time? How did any others involved react at that time? Was there something that could have been said or done to resolve the issue when it first arose? If so, take note of this and let it be a reminder to you to have the courage to say what needs to be spoken when future issues arise, so they will not fester and become problematic.

Be as objective as possible and honestly review your role in the situation that caused the problem to continue. Is there something you can do to resolve the issue? If you are unable or unwilling to resolve issues with other people, you can still forgive them for their part in the transgression. Simply understand that they made the best choice they could in the circumstance. No matter how you feel they should have reacted, they (and you) were both making choices based on your belief codes. It is only natural that each of you speaks and reacts within your comfort zone. This is why it is so important to be consciously aware of the belief codes that are driving your life….


Forgiveness & Freedom

ill_fly_away Katherine Ace

Yes, painting by Katherine Ace, I’ll Fly Away. I am just in love with her work. A real modern day master artist!

Lately, and probably a result of hearing all the great teachers speak during the Hay House World Summit, I have been guided to forgive and release some of the toxic garbage hanging out in my fields of consciousness. I had a rough time  about 4 years ago, my best friend Roger had died from HIV Aids, and my financial situation became rather strapped as the man I worked for just wouldn’t pay his employees. Yeah really! So I have just held onto that anger like it was Gollum’s precious ring. “My Precious!” Why? I mean what is about that we feel the need to hang onto such darkness? I have wished to release it but just couldn’t, or wouldn’t.

So yesterday I am sitting outside and start that whole thought train of seething over the money he owes me, and I heard, “Forgive the debt. He doesn’t owe you anything. Just forgive it and let it go.” I suppose it was my Higher Self or Inner Divine Self as I like to call it, or it could be an angelic friend but either way, I said, “Okay,” just like that and did. I felt a weight lift off me. I felt lighter. So then today I had another recent opportunity.

A manager at Pep Boys had recently given me his card when I purchased a couple of tires and told me that when I had the money he would honor a Buy 3 tires and get the forth free, deal they had, he went on to say that it was his store and he liked to make people happy. Well when I called him to take him up on his offer, he said. “I didn’t say that, I can’t do that. You must have misunderstood.” Oh, but I was pissed off, not that he had to do it, but just the way he acted like I was delusional. lol

Well I wrote him an email and told him off and then I was going to write and complain. I heard, “Forgive him,” yes, again, so I did. I wrote him another email and said, “I just wanted to ease your mind and tell you that I know miscommunications happen, and I forgive you.” I never got an answer but I didn’t want the guy worrying about an angry customer. Plus I found a better deal.

So the blue butterfly is learning, now it would have been better had I not gotten angry in the first place but I did. At least it didn’t take 4 years. Forgiveness is for you and it releases all that dark mass that will sit in our energetic fields and make us sick.

So if you have any unresolved anger, think about just letting it go. Poof it is gone.


A Gollum riddle:

This thing all things devours:

Birds, beast, trees, flowers;

Gnaws iron, bites steel;

Grinds hard stones to meal;

Slays king, ruins town,

And beats high mountain down.

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Namaste my preciouses~