Remnants Painting by: Katherine Ace
I don’t know what to write. I had an epiphany today but it doesn’t make me feel any better. That was that my existence or rather my incarnation as Sindy is not necessarily about my happiness. Many years ago I made a very serious vow, a vow to my Being, or Higher Self, (whatever you wish to call it.) The vow I made was to make the purpose of my Being’s incarnation as Sindy my top priority. I stand by this but in my journey since my friends death three years ago, when I lost my balance, left my home and friends, started a new life, moved again and started another….I forgot. Yes, I completely forgot that I made this very serious vow. So in that, I have to realize that my life is not necessarily about my happiness, or lack thereof.
Now we all know that I am in fact blue and a bit depressed, but that perspective is on me. I can choose to feel otherwise. The menopause probably isn’t assisting me at all. Lol So, get thee to the (Chaste Tree extract,) herb store Sindy. Anyway my point is this; my life has a purpose according to my Beings divine blueprint, now I am pretty sure my having a positive attitude will be required to attain it.
What is my Life Purpose you ask? Or maybe you didn’t, but I will answer the question for the sake of continuity. Here is the answer: I don’t know. I really wish I did. I think it has to do with all that the tools I have gathered thus far and possibly write or teach. I don’t know, so I continue my education and just go forward seeking the guidance of my Higher Self.
If one thing we say or do influences someone that achieves world peace or becomes a great leader….well then, that would be good for me. I think that would be good for my Being but I will have to give them a call, we have lost touch with one another lately.
So Namaste, really, I mean it.