11 Day Clearing~ Self Doubt

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Day 1

On our little 11 day odyssey there are many things we can look into clearing, I am going to begin with self doubt. I would imagine that this is going to have some form of fear as its origin. We have so many hidden fears that flavor our psyches, and our inner emotional closets. “Why doesn’t he love me?” Yeah, I am going to start there. Well the answer is, It doesn’t matter. Why don’t I love myself? Now that is a better question. Sometimes I think I do, but do I really? Yesterday I did what I like to call, Divination via iTunes. That’s right. You set your intention for a message and then shuffle all your songs. Madonna, I like to call Madge, sang to me, “Don’t go for second best baby…” I heard her. I am the best! I am a sexy, goddess. I am smart. I am kind. I am funny. I am talented.

I AM That I AM~ I Am Brahman~ Such is the Truth

Okay, not meaning to sound arrogant but I really don’t lack confidence on the surface, but I have abandonment issues because, for starters, my father did not want to be a father, and said so. That hurt, that still hurts. Little Sindy is very sad, she wanted her daddy to love her, he didn’t. It appears I am going to carry this theme through until I clear it. So let’s clear up that issue. Taking it out of the psychological closet and looking at it, it seems I think it still has some value as I keep putting it back in there. I am not a victim! I have never been, or will I ever be a victim. My being chose this for me to overcome this, to transmute this challenge. So I am really not sure how to clear it, because I have tried. I have written letters to my dad and tossed them into the Pacific ocean from a boat . Oh he is dead by the way. He died when he was like 53. I shed a few tears out of a sense of propriety but I really didn’t care. He wasn’t mean or abusive, he just didn’t love me, didn’t protect me, oh well, not a victim, not a victim. lol

“Respect Yourself…Hey, hey.”

So today, I will reinforce my value to myself, or rather to my Being and to my Life Purpose. Still not sure what that is either?

Prana Meditation by Laura Evans

A physical clearing that many of you are probably aware of is a salt/baking soda bath. I do this and also use a crystal to skim my body and cut energetic cords. So Day 1, a bit personal but it’s about clearing.

工 レo√乇 ㄚ◯∪ ✿ 工 レo√乇 ㄚ◯∪ ✿ 工 レo√乇 ㄚ◯∪

HAPPY BIRTHDAY to my Mom, who is so beautiful, kind, funny, classy, stylish, and really awesome! I might not have had a dad that loved me, but I gave myself an incredible mother!

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Namaste

Sindy

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