My Immaculate Dream


Come Undone

Questioning has always been part and parcel of my being. As a child I was punished by society, family, institutions; schools, churches, for being too inquisitive. Concurrently I have a rebellious nature and questioned authority as well. I have spent my entire life endlessly curious. I want to know everything. Of course you simply cannot know everything; or can you? In my Education classes in school that is what we are taught, and the Core standards mandate the same, to teach students to question, higher thinking, analyzation   …. Strange that I should have experienced my inquisitive nature as I did.

When people talk of awakening consciously, I have always balked at that phraseology, as it just seems such a larger concept. However if such an event happens to us normal line humans then mine began some thirty years ago when I just allowed myself to believe whatever I chose to. It was that simple really. I had immediate access to past lives and the Akashic Records, now I am not saying I had great control or consistent access but nonetheless I had access at times. An amazing friend of mine has grown leaps and bounds in consciousness in the last few years and we talk a lot about their past-lives, and our past-lives together, so I enjoy coming across various points of views on the subject. I think I would like to become certified someday, however I am much t0o busy with my degree now. It is endlessly fascinating to me to study the work by people like Anita Moorjani, Brian Weiss, and Micheal Newton. Newton is new to me and came to my attention yesterday via a conversation with a Facebook friend. He shared an interview with me by journalist, filmmaker, Rich Martini, interviewed here, who documented the work of Newton. I also like Dolores Cannon and her expanse of the parameters into future lives and her “Quantum Healing Hypnosis Technique.”

Hearing that other people have visited some of the same places is infinitely confirming. The subject of Atlantis is one that I like to explore in these ways and my favorite source on that topic is Edgar Cayce’s Atlantis Readings. 

 It is a long but good read. Cayce feels so authentic to me.

Another Martini Interview

Namaste and Peace~

The Harnessed Bunny


An interesting specific totem archetype surfaced the other day. As I was leaving Hogwarts, which is what I call the Language Arts building at school, I saw a couple sitting under a tree with a bunny on a harness. I didn’t give it much thought other than, “Oh how cute.” You know a typical response. Once home for my couple hour break before returning across town to campus, I decided to read my Fairy tarot, one of the cards I drew was The Prince of Spring (Wands), “On the card the prince rides a rabbit, moving quickly from one adventure to another!” Immediately I observe the synchronicity, and I thought “How curious?” I though “Where is the third?” Then I realized a novel I had just started reading, The Disreputable History of Frankie Landau-Banks, by E. Lockhart, has a protagonist who is called “Bunny rabbit” by her family. So, what does this all mean? I mean it is too odd to mean nothing.

I know standard rabbit symbolism; fertility, abundant sexuality, abundance, so forth and so on. In two instances harnessed, and actually as well in the third with the novel’s heroine, Frankie. Since I will not go into the novel suffice to say, she is restrained by society, by her family, her gender, so forth and so on. In brief the narrative is about a girl, a secret fraternity at a top boarding school, a side of society not many are privy to. Therefore I will look at the symbolism.

I ran across an article I had not read before that seemed primarily to speak to me in this regard.

Rabbit Power Animal Symbol of Creativity, Intuition, Paradox, and Fear

By Ina Woolcott

Rabbit is interpreted in different ways in different cultures. In China, it is one of the astrological animals and linked too good fortune and the moon. People born under Rabbits sign are believed to be artistic and sensitive. The Rabbit is also linked with the goddess Hecate. In some Native American traditions Rabbit is known as the Fear Caller, due to it projecting its fear of those wishing to eat it, and thereby attracting the predators it fears. Ever heard the phrase scared as a rabbit? Well, rabbits are well known as timid, shy and afraid creatures. We can learn from the rabbit that if we are always afraid of something then we may draw/create the very experience we are afraid of in to our lives. Fear sends out a certain vibrational energy that may attract the very thing we fear. Fearful thoughts reproduce (like rabbits) and manifest what we fear. Rabbit people may be afraid of tragedy, illness, and disaster, thereby calling those very fears to them to teach them lessons

If a rabbit lives in constant fear of being eaten by an eagle, then this increases the chances of this happening by sending out negative energy. The rabbit should dedicate his time and energy to becoming clever and cautious in order to outwit the eagle. If the rabbit finds you then ask yourself whether you are worried or afraid of something. Ask yourself what the best way to handle the situation is. Are you able to let go of your fears? Is there a friend who is able to help you, someone whom you trust? Whatever, living with fear is no good for you.

Rabbits are guides into the shadow world, where our personal fears lie. When the rabbit shows up it is time to examine those deep reflexive fears that hold you back from growing. Do you keep bounding for the safety of your old patterns every time something new or challenging presents itself? If the answer is yes, the rabbit asks you to face your fears with compassion for yourself. You must accept that it is part of human nature to feel fear at times, but also believe that our fears need not paralyze our growth and movement.

Rabbit medicine is also very positive, showing us how to attract love, abundance, health, and a warm, dry burrow. We are guided to move through fear, living by our own wits, receiving hidden teachings and intuitive messages, quick thinking, strengthening intuition, and paradox. Rabbit represents humility, being quiet and soft and not self-asserting. If you see Rabbit or in any way feel attracted to him, this may be a sign for you to wait for the forces of the universe to start moving again, to stop worrying and to get rid of your fears. Rabbit always indicates a need to re-evaluate the process you are undergoing, to rid yourself of any negative feelings or barriers, and to be more humble.

Rabbits are vegetarians. Though they are eating, they are always alert. They eat the inner bark of saplings and shrubs as well as leaves and fruit, giving a perfect illustration of Nature’s balance. Their rapid rate of reproduction is balanced out by the fact that almost every predatory animal eats them. This power animal may be asking you to examine the kinds of foods you eat. Perhaps a vegetarian diet, only for a short time, can help you strengthen and heal. Generally rabbits are most likely to be seen between dawn and dusk. The sun rising and setting from horizon to horizon has an air of mystery surrounding it. This is the time when the invisible becomes visible and nature spirits are more distinct. Due to the rabbit and the fairy realms being active at the same time of day, rabbit has a strong link with the magic and mystery of other worlds. To enter these worlds requires but a leap of faith. Rabbits are highly sensitive with keen observational skills, granting them strong reflexes that help them dash to safety. In the time it takes to bat an eyelid, they can be seen, disappear and reappear. Fast, agile and clever, they teach us spontaneous decisive movement, always knowing which direction to go and when. When rabbit appears, this may help us to grasp an opportunity that may only present itself for brief moments.

Rabbits tend to move suddenly and unpredictably. They leap and bound their way through life. If rabbit has entered your life, you may find tat your endeavors also go in leaps and bounds. Maybe this is an indication for you to plan more or to check any plans already set in motion. Do not corner yourself. Pay attention to your personal movement. Growth is assured if one is moving in balance with what is occurring in their life. If one moves too fast or too slow an imbalance occurs and growth is stifled.

We are able to realize what a good teacher Rabbit is in showing us that we are the creators of our lives with our thoughts and emotions. Rabbit feels fear and projects it, creating in the external world situations reflecting the inner world of fear. For us, this is an important lesson. Affirmations, involve focusing on what you want in life and positive outcomes. Thoughts have a certain energy frequency, creating a vibration aiding them to become reality. Just as true when you think about and focus on what you don’t want to happen, a lot of the time we don’t even do this on purpose we do it automatically and even subconsciously, gathering strength unknowingly. This makes it extremely necessary to bring our fears into consciousness – into the light, treating them with gentleness.

Rabbit ability of being alert and aware of its surroundings ALL the time, can help us be aware that we ALL have the power to create with our thoughts and to be aware of them, to redirect them on a positive path and to be focused on our dreams, not allowing our focus to be distracted from our intentions with negative emotions, especially from actualizing our wishes and dreams.

Link to article

An appropriate take on my symbolic totem scenario.

gArDeN Of aDelE



Happy Wednesday everybody. On a lovely Tuesday morning, my day off, I sat in my garden with coffee, the birds chirping like Spring, and my kitty, listening to Adele’s “19” which I bought on iTunes once. I really like that album, and so did my kitty Spinxy. I watched her the entire time, just so relaxed and chilling under the tree. Have I ever told you all how beautiful our Fall, and Winter feather is? It’s nice. Butterflies, and Springs blooms with a crispness however.



Unbeknownst to me

I was wandering

There was a lonliness

and a hunger.

I found a land

an enchanting one

There was magic here

The natives were not welcoming

I persisted

They relented

It is warm here

a well

a well of love

Fairy Moonbeams


Hello friends. The moon is beautiful tonight. I have been so, so busy but finally relief, well… for a minute.

All is well. My A session class is over, and my first grade at ASU, is an A. The Shakespeare paper resulted in a B, and coming from him, that is a A. lol First Shakespeare midterm, and well, I passed, grades not in yet. I will avoid anything with elements of poetry analysis if at all possible in the future. What is the vehicle and what is the tenor for this metaphor? Ay, caramba! I do not know. I tried. But for the most part it is going well. I just found out I am going to high school next semester for my internship. Hmmm, We shall see?

I have read several more books, “Uglies” by Scott Westerfeld, a dystopian novel where everyone is ugly and then they’re not. A really fun read, and I got to go see him speak that week at a local bookstore with my “Uglies” group  from class. It was fun. I will warn that the book is one of three, and there was no resolution at the end. Argh! As soon as I am out for Christmas I will venture into the other two, “Pretties”, and “Specials.” After reading his book I thought he was going to be a bit deeper than he was, but he was really funny. Also “I Am J”, about a transgender teen, pretty good, but the GLBTQ community doesn’t seem to like it much. The author Cris Beam was well meaning, and the book had its moments.

So. . . I miss yall. I wish I had more time to connect. Sending out love far, and wide. Kisses, and magical fairy dust dropping down on the rays of the moonbeams to all~


Magic Is


Magic is. . .

For one…. This amazing painting that graces the back side of my Fairy Tarot deck. She just looks like I want a fairy to look. It has sure been a long haul with school. I have forever homework with umpteen essays, books to read, articles to read, projects and presentations to do. A normal free day for me is 12 or more hours of work. Wow, I had no idea. The good news is that I am doing it.

I have a rather scholarly Shakespeare professor who I really enjoy listening to and learning from. However I took my rough draft for my first paper, that I had worked on for eighteen hours, and he hated it. I was gobsmacked and not in a good way. lol Thankfully I also have great non-corporeal professors who advise me and keep me straight. The scene in his office would be great in a film, at least from my perspective. So I shift gears, rearrange my schedule so I can get caught up yesterday. Reading The Age of Opportunity, by Dr. Steinberg, on the adolescent brain and development is just mind blowing. I am reading a chapter on “The Importance of Self Regulation,” and determination. He says “Tenacity wins over talent.” He goes on to say that in his profession at least 80% of his essays, or grant proposals are refused. Hmm. . . “I See” I say to myself, as I read further “You have to . . . review, revise, review, and revise again.” A different class than Shakespeare but what a timely bit of reading for me. My angel guide says, “You skip steps” I do. I try to write a perfect paper, all correct in formatting and structure the first time. I just learned that having your work critiqued and edited is part of the process. I have also learned there is something to be said to writing with pen and paper old school first. So much to learn.

Now on the lighter side, I LOVE Young Adult Literature, my professor is just an angel herself, and she gives us such good literature, and academic articles, and essays to read. I love it, and her. She is my new favorite professor. Don’t tell her though, okay? I am reading The House on Mango Street, and next up, The Red Umbrella. I think this teaching thing may just be my niche, that or writing. An essay we just read was on Contemporary Memoirs, it had so many inspirational ideas for teaching this genre of YA literature. I linked, The House on Mango Street by Sandra Cisneros.

Lots of love everybody.


Happy Day of Peace

Art by

Howard David Johnson

Lost Boy


B Top

Fairy splash

B BottomLost Boy

Hello my friends. I hope this day finds you in peace & joy. Here in the US we have Labor Day on Monday, so no work or school for us. I need the time to try and get caught up on all my homework, reading, watching, writing, and making presentations. I can honestly say that school has changed me in only the first couple of weeks. That is sort of awesome.

I just finished reading a beautiful piece of literature, Aristotle and Dante Discover the Secrets of the Universe. It is the second of ten YA, (Young Adult) novels I will be reading this semester. It is an “American Book Award Winner,” by Benjamin Alire Saenz. Here is how it starts, or an excerpt from the first page.

“I was fifteen.

I was bored.

I was miserable.

As far as I was concerned, the sun could have melted the blue right off the sky.”

The story is tender, turbulent, heartfelt, and poetic. I highly recommend it. Have a hanky handy.


Blue Fae

Lost Boy Violin Cover

The fact that I have the ease and time to make a post is an indicator of how well my assignment went. I had to write a Research Critique in APA format. My initial response was one of panic and fear. Go figure. However, one thing I have learned this past summer is to stay in gratitude, and to have faith. It was not so easy but I got better at it. I have spent a good deal of time meditating the last few months, additionally I have had some very good communication with the angelic realm. I also believe in fairies, I do, I do! Speaking of fairies, I bought Doreen Virtue’s Fairy Tarot deck, the art is dreamy. Okay back on topic, so about a month ago I was meditating and calling on the archangels to come and heal me, guide me, and inspire me. As I called forth Archangel Gabriel, I saw the brightest of golden light and felt it in my body. I ask him, why he was coming in so strong? He said “To help you succeed.” Yeah! Nice huh?

So as I approached this daunting assignment, I kept myself calm, I read all the directions, and for me that is quite an accomplishment. Oh, and another thing. If you are so, so busy, you absolutely cannot procrastinate. I mean it isn’t possible. lol So I had done all the prep work, and fortunately the instructor had provided every tool for you to succeed. She gave you a template; an example; where to and how to locate the resources, and so on. The article I chose was on a study done on bullying, which I want to understand. Well surprisingly I just rolled threw it. I had to google and YouTube things like how to create a Running Header, take a screen shot and create and insert a table. Strangely you do need that stuff they teach you in College Algebra. Yeah, Right? I am a Secondary Ed. English major, but this is a “Ed. Psych” class. Will that math never go away? I am just sharing because I had no idea that I would have the entire paper completed with three days to spare. Thank you Gabriel. It is good to have friends in high places, and we all have friends in high places. Just saying.

On other fronts, Macbeth is being given to us slowly. The class is “Shakespeare and Performance” which now makes a lot of since to me now. He wrote the plays to be performed, so they are so much easier to understand when watching them performed. I am watching two versions, one a sort of classic take, HD, and Rupert Golds, Macbeth, on PBS. We have only unpacked the first four acts, and I have not watched ahead, primarily because I didn’t have time. I love all of my instructors. Everyone at ASU is awesome. I even bought a tee-shirt.

All my love, and don’t forget to ask for the angels help, talk to them, and listen to them. It has certainly worked for me. I testify.